Lately I've been thinking a lot about my job in specific and the job in general. I'm pulling back from "involvement," mostly because I don't feel like I can make a difference. Why live with the frustration and extra work, when I don't see any good coming of it? Most recently, I was also pushed out of one of my remaining "public" responsibilities in favor of the leadership clique at my school. The whole thing is making me feel like it's all pointless.
I thought that stepping up was part of the point of teaching--making things better. I'm frustrated that all it seems to do is make my life worse.